A New Lease

Do you ever just wake up and realize things are different? Your perspective has changed.

The sun is shining. You can hear birds. Your brain is less foggy.

I feel that lately. I needed a little kick in the butt and I got it. From an unsuspecting source. I got kicked when I was down. Never fun. But I firmly believe that what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger. Even though I didn't like getting kicked and the harsh reality that accompanied it, it forced me to stand up tall, be strong, suck it up and keep on going on.

I'll never forget the kick. Nor should I.

I was stuck in a whirl of confusion. I got kicked in a fairly harsh, cruel way. Emotionally. It was a wake up call to my physically and emotionally drained body. I was hurting. This made me hurt even more.

It sucked. Part of me wanted to curl up and cry. I wanted to be sad about it. I was sad. But I refuse to wallow in sadness and self pity.

So I made a choice.

Change.

Make changes.

And take it one day at a time.

Every day is another day.

Now its been more than a handful of days. And a handful of choices. And a handful of changes.

All are good. Some are difficult. But all are a step forward.

I feel good about what I'm doing.

Sometimes if you can find the positive in a shitty situation, you get a new lease on life. And it's worth it.